The most common complaint I have had about boyfriends past is that they don't see me for who I am. They see me for what they want me to be. Then when they find out who I am, they are disappointed.
I don't feel this at all with David. I feel safe, solid and understood on a level that I don't know if I've ever seen before in a relationship.
He is fun, smart, handsome and easy for me to be around.
This new relationship is a beautiful thing.
My new man is untouchable.
I feel incredibly lucky.
I am incredibly happy.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Lecture websites make me hot
http://www.businessinnovationfactory.com/iss/video/bif5-jonah-lehrer
I am always Starving for new ideas
From new people
New concepts
Build on the fact
Building is breathing
I am always Starving for new ideas
From new people
New concepts
Build on the fact
Building is breathing
Friday, February 19, 2010
melonart
http://www.mellonfineart.com/
and why i love him.
http://fineartamerica.com/images-medium/the-pheonix-m-mellon.jpg
and why i love him.
http://fineartamerica.com/images-medium/the-pheonix-m-mellon.jpg
side effects
Thought about my accident this morning.
Thought about my grades and how they dropped after my accident.
Wondered about who I might be and what more I could have accomplished if it hadnt been for my accident.
I'm a little depressed.
Thought about my grades and how they dropped after my accident.
Wondered about who I might be and what more I could have accomplished if it hadnt been for my accident.
I'm a little depressed.
Sunday, February 14, 2010
valentine's day 2010
You better believe I was dressed to kill today.
Lady in a long black evening dress with her shiny lace bra peeking through.
Kept warm by her cashmere shawl and a black winter jacket shared by her sister.
Eyes done up pink and gold and dark red lips.
Worked all day. Sincerely cheerful, I played with people all day. Dancing around and joking.
I only felt it shoved in my face commuting.
But these heels walked proud today.
Now thrown in a corner, and my dress in a pile by my bed.
I smile as I was going to write about how sultry I am..
I'm a complete wreck. Makeup everywhere, dishes and emergen-c packets on my bed.
Because I've got a head cold. Which is not a surprise with how I've been eating lately. I want to bike tomorrow. I hate waiting for that goddamn bus and walking in the cold. I'd rather be flying in the cold and heated up by my own exertion.
Like I need anyone to tell me that I'm pretty on valentine's day.
Me being pretty is all many ever see and it is the bare surface of my worth.
My gut. My power. My fire. That is nothing the public eye can see.
Save for my blogs. :)
Anyone can be pretty.
My ethics and how I stand by for what I believe in.
How I choose my battles. How I compromise.
How I open my heart. Again. Again and Again. Even when the outcome seems futile.
My undying faith in humanity.
These are a few of the many things I hold inside of me that help determine my worth.
When I find a suitable partner, those will be the things in me that he loves.
He will love that I am wild. He will share my unquenchable thirst for knowledge and adventure. And we will curse the night and bless the world and live to the fullest.
Forever, amen.
Lady in a long black evening dress with her shiny lace bra peeking through.
Kept warm by her cashmere shawl and a black winter jacket shared by her sister.
Eyes done up pink and gold and dark red lips.
Worked all day. Sincerely cheerful, I played with people all day. Dancing around and joking.
I only felt it shoved in my face commuting.
But these heels walked proud today.
Now thrown in a corner, and my dress in a pile by my bed.
I smile as I was going to write about how sultry I am..
I'm a complete wreck. Makeup everywhere, dishes and emergen-c packets on my bed.
Because I've got a head cold. Which is not a surprise with how I've been eating lately. I want to bike tomorrow. I hate waiting for that goddamn bus and walking in the cold. I'd rather be flying in the cold and heated up by my own exertion.
Like I need anyone to tell me that I'm pretty on valentine's day.
Me being pretty is all many ever see and it is the bare surface of my worth.
My gut. My power. My fire. That is nothing the public eye can see.
Save for my blogs. :)
Anyone can be pretty.
My ethics and how I stand by for what I believe in.
How I choose my battles. How I compromise.
How I open my heart. Again. Again and Again. Even when the outcome seems futile.
My undying faith in humanity.
These are a few of the many things I hold inside of me that help determine my worth.
When I find a suitable partner, those will be the things in me that he loves.
He will love that I am wild. He will share my unquenchable thirst for knowledge and adventure. And we will curse the night and bless the world and live to the fullest.
Forever, amen.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Fucking up.
I don't really feel that a person can fuck up. Unless you die.
But if you aren't dead.. you should feel proud.. you made it this far.
Life is easier to some than others. For the ones where you don't face hardships day to day.. you're challenge is boredom.
To the outside world, we are made up of what we say, how we interact and what we do.
Having a healthy perspective will not only alleviate our own stress, worry and fear, it will also show us as capable to the rest of humankind.
I'm still working on my perspective. Some days are better than others.
And my vow to myself is that I will never put myself in a situation where I will become stagnant. Though it might not even be possible because life keeps rotating.
There were a couple f things on this Osha lecture dvd that I agree with.
It doesn't make sense to label things right or wrong. It makes sense to live with a healthy respect for yourself, for the people around you and for your environment.
But if you aren't dead.. you should feel proud.. you made it this far.
Life is easier to some than others. For the ones where you don't face hardships day to day.. you're challenge is boredom.
To the outside world, we are made up of what we say, how we interact and what we do.
Having a healthy perspective will not only alleviate our own stress, worry and fear, it will also show us as capable to the rest of humankind.
I'm still working on my perspective. Some days are better than others.
And my vow to myself is that I will never put myself in a situation where I will become stagnant. Though it might not even be possible because life keeps rotating.
There were a couple f things on this Osha lecture dvd that I agree with.
It doesn't make sense to label things right or wrong. It makes sense to live with a healthy respect for yourself, for the people around you and for your environment.
Monday, February 1, 2010
The other concept beg thoughts draft
The "Other" concept has been around since humanity began. You find it in religions and tribal myth and folk tales. It serves a purpose. This concept keeps tradition, some would say it also preserves culture: merriam-webster.com/dictionary/culture 2 and 5a,b.
Does culture preserve the other concept? yes ex: folk tales, popular culture, gays, women, groups. So where does holistic healing come in?
Education- taught how to live life/ what in life matters
The other concept is not necessary. at least not the key. (western culture) (definition self awareness) and Buddhism focuses on escaping otherism
scientific creationism theory 2-1-2
(though its irrelevant if its true)
look up holistic. are animals and plants holistic? is it a set of philosophies?
it transcends concept.
frontal lobe- culture process
pg 4 holistic healing "robert s ivker, d.o., past president of the ahma describes holistic health as 'the unlimited..." (melanie has my book.)
communication even more important than education science, amebas communicate
thats why otherism worked in smaller groups. Others were demonized or celebrated and did not encounter people similar to themselves.
Does culture preserve the other concept? yes ex: folk tales, popular culture, gays, women, groups. So where does holistic healing come in?
Education- taught how to live life/ what in life matters
The other concept is not necessary. at least not the key. (western culture) (definition self awareness) and Buddhism focuses on escaping otherism
scientific creationism theory 2-1-2
(though its irrelevant if its true)
look up holistic. are animals and plants holistic? is it a set of philosophies?
it transcends concept.
frontal lobe- culture process
pg 4 holistic healing "robert s ivker, d.o., past president of the ahma describes holistic health as 'the unlimited..." (melanie has my book.)
communication even more important than education science, amebas communicate
thats why otherism worked in smaller groups. Others were demonized or celebrated and did not encounter people similar to themselves.
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